Confidence is not something that comes easy for me.
I am 5'9'' tall, have a slim figure, small breasts, good hips, a small butt, and gentle sandy-olive skin.
I pluck my eyebrows to perfection, I keep my armpits and legs clean-shaven, my hair is straight but sometimes wavy coffee perfection, and I shower every day to maintain clear skin.
All this and yet:
Most of the time I don't feel as beautiful as people tell me I am because: I am not perfect.
I don't want to be perfect.
What I want is to be comfortable and confident about my appearance. I, like most women, have parts of my body that I don't like; but I'm not going to get into that.
I am afraid to wear things that I want to wear because I am scared of change.
I want to wear gorgeous heels, dresses, skirts, tights, and blouses.
But I have such a hard time with it because I'm never confident that I actually look good.
I'm never confident that I can pull it off, even though deep down inside I know that I can.
I have a hard time because I know how mean people can be.
I know the bad things that girls say about one and other behind their backs.
Why does all that matter?
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