Bored With Life

an average day for me:
wake up. roll over. sleep. wake up. get up. use the washroom. wash hands and face. coffee. breakfast. check facebook. read webcomics. watch tv. eat. shower. walk around the house. more tv. eat. play computer games. browse imgur. browse pinterest. facebook. hotmail. gmail. eat. more tv. more internet. sleep.

I rarely go outside. That is an easy fix. I enjoy the experience of a good walk. Now that summer is coming up I'll be a little more willing to go outside too because of the warmth and the sunshine. Hiking. Camping. Beaching.

I hope to have a job when Boyfriend and I move. That will take up some more time.
Then studying will come back into play.

I don't like to get drunk. I don't do drugs. Whereas it seems that the majority of people in my age group are crazy about that sort of thing. I like going to parties. I enjoy the company of others. I enjoy the adventures that arise. But I don't often get invited to these sorts of things. People just don't think of me I suppose. I rarely get asked to hang out at all to be honest. I don't know why... is it because I'm too conservative? Because I don't want to change who I am just to be asked out.
I feel really awkward now.

I want to be doing something meaningful with my life but I don't know what and I don't know how to start. I don't want to be supporting causes and going to rallies for things that I haven't researched or don't fully understand or even that I have researched and understand but don't support rallying against. (like so many of my peers do on a regular basis).  I'd like to get more involved with psychology research; which will be much easier once I am in our new place because I'll be not leaving in less than a month and will be able to commit. I want to help people through therapy, and I am on the road to doing so. Right now though. In the present moment I want to be able to be like "oh yeah man! I had the coolest adventure today!"

I miss my friends... thinking about it now... I know why I haven't really made many lasting committed friendships where I am right now; it is because I knew I was leaving and didn't want to commit and then be upset when I had to leave.

Goodnight Internet.